Are you hiding behind the camera too? Can you no longer see the beauty in yourself just because you have gained weight? Guess what I hide too, but as of this month, I no longer will, and let me tell you why.
This is a little bit of a hard post for me to write. Why? I recently lost my uncle, and he was a young 58 years old. I am still completely devastated by this and am taking each day as it comes. But on to the story… while sitting with my aunt I offered to make the slideshow for his memorial. You will never guess what she asked… she had just one request… she didn’t want any pictures of herself in it.
Why Would She Say That?
Basically, for a part of her life, she was plus size, and her weight had always bothered her. Did that mean my uncle didn’t love her? NO! He loved her more than words can express. And if you looked through their pictures it was very evident that he did. You could see his smiles, kisses, and affection written all over them. To him, she was just a beautiful women. The same beautiful tiny bride or as any other time in their life together.
Did I Change Her Mind?
Yes, with tears rolling down both of our faces I reminded her how much he loved her, and that she was always beautiful in his eyes. Those pictures were so much a part of their lives, and their story couldn’t be told without them. He was such a great example for all of us. Because his love wasn’t measured by her size or even her looks, but by her… the person.
My Eye Opener
As a result, I soon realized I was doing the same thing. HIDING… I cannot even remember when I first started to do this. I guess sometime after my first baby. I was so discouraged about how my body changed then. Things were no longer flattering, and I thought everyone would prefer look at the kids anyways. Really, why look at me? Who would want to see this?
Was I Loved Too?
My hubby tells me every day that he loves, and he always has no matter if I am 140 or 240. It doesn’t matter to him, and I am still that sassy wife he fell in love with. Does it bother my kids? No for them it will just be happy memories while we are on a vacation or maybe just a trip to get ice cream on a hot summer day.
Should I Be Hiding Behind The Camera?
NO! It is time for me to leave my body issues behind… to accept who I am (even my lumps & bulges). I am tired of hiding. This is my family, and I want them to remember me for a fun mom who wasn’t afraid to have her picture taken.
Will This Be Easy?
Unfortunately, it will be a struggle, but that is okay. It is way easier to hide than look at that picture showing my tummy, but guess what… that stomach gave birth to three wonderful kids. They will want to see pictures of me later in life, and I shouldn’t deprive them of memories we made together.
Are You Hiding Behind The Camera?
I encourage to embrace your life and love your body. Don’t be afraid to be in those pictures! Look past your rolls, because life is short. You never will know how much those simple snapshots will mean to someone else later. Trust me… they just see the smiles, love, and memories of that day.